Brianna "Chickenfry" LaPaglia has accused her ex-boyfriend Zach Bryan of emotional abuse while they were together

Reps for LaPaglia and Bryan did not immediately respond to PEOPLE's request for comment.

"The last year of my life has been the hardest year of my life dealing with the abuse from this dude," LaPaglia said, referring to Bryan.

"I'm still scared right now because I'm scared of him," she continued. "My brain's rewired and I'm scared to make him mad and last week, I didn't want to talk about it 'cause I was scared."

Speaking about the alleged abuse, she said that it was a constant cycle of like "build you up, beat you down, apologize over and over."

"There was always another excuse as to why he was treating me so poorly and why I'm crying myself to sleep every night," she said. "Why he's screaming at me and then you wake up, it's the apology, it's the 'I'm going to be better like I need you in my life,' but if you've been through this — I don't expect people to understand emotional abuse if you haven't been through it. I hope you never have to go through it but if you've been there you know what I'm talking about."

LaPaglia also claimed that the women who were previously in relationships with Bryan were made to sign non-disclosure agreements (NDAs) to keep them from publicly discussing their own experiences with him. She alleged to have been offered $12 million along with a house New York apartment to "not talk about the relationship."

"It came down to the point of I'm not the people before, and I was someone before you, and you made the women before me believe that they had no other choice than to take money from you, sign their experiences away, sign what they went through away," said LaPaglia.

"You get to go skip off and sing your little f----- songs on stage like you're a good dude. You get to treat people around you like s---. Sorry, I'm not them. I don't want your money; I don't want in two years to buy a f------house and think, 'Oh, this is the money from the dude that literally f----- destroyed me and broke me for a year.' "

"You made the women before me believe that they had no other choice but to take money from you," LaPaglia alleged. "[They] signed their experiences and what they went through away [so] you get to go skip off and sing you little f--- songs on stage like you're a good dude."

LaPaglia said she decided to open up about her alleged experiences "for anyone else that's been emotionally abused and for people right now being emotionally abused."

"It's for anyone that don't have a support system that I luckily had going through this," she continued. "This isn't like a drama thing for me, this isn't me not signing the NDA or not taking the money because I wanna get on here and expose who he is and all that s---. I'm not signing away my experiences and what I went through to protect someone that hurt me and I'm a lot stronger than a weak man, f-- you and f--- your money."

Bryan and LaPaglia met at the Academy of Country Music Awards in May 2023 and officially started dating in July 2023. Bryan confirmed their split on Instagram on Oct. 22 and asked for everyone to respect his and LaPaglia's privacy.