Heart Evangelista is no stranger to disheartening situations in her life, especially with the fact that she is working in a fast-paced industry. But while acknowledging that people come and go, she opened up about how certain people destroyed not just her trust, but most importantly, her happy self.
“Whenever I get problems, like personal problems, I couldn’t even be in a bad mood because they would make me feel like I’m so toxic. So ngayon, I try to be happy even if I have my own problems. I try not to be selfish but sometimes, I’m only human, and I’m really tired,” Heart said before breaking into tears during her recent vlog. The fashion celebrity uploaded a one-hour-long vlog of her jam-packed schedule in Indonesia and Singapore while attending various brand commitments.
Her YouTube vlog series, “I AM HEART,” was initially set to give a glimpse of Heart’s hectic life as someone who flies in and out of the country to accomplish back-to-back projects for different brands. However, its second episode turned into one of those tell-all moments of Heart where she bared all her unspoken emotions.
Heart opens up about her recent struggles
Without dropping any names into the conversation, Heart continued to talk about one of her most heartbreaking experiences with some of her former friends, a.k.a. most trusted people whom she’d been with for “such a long time.”
It really took a toll on her mental health, and most of the time, Heart still thinks she’s toxic and problematic.
“I’m really tired of overthinking. I’m tired of thinking about what other people…(would say). I hate it. And at the same time, you feel like a bad person, so you deserve it. Because you feel like you’re problematic, you’re toxic to everyone,” she explained.
“I don’t wanna be bad… I really was going through tough times at that time, but it had nothing to do with them naman,” she shared.
“They make me think that it’s all competition. I would be triggered about that because they would feed that to me. But now that I’m alone, it’s really not about other people, you know?” Heart also mentioned during the vlog.
She noted that the people she’s talking about are now out of her life—”gone” as she described it. But despite the fallout and cutting ties with them, Heart divulged how she’s still suffering from the damage that their so-called friendship has caused her.
She laments over the idea of still seeing them in her workspace, as they have worked together for a long time. It appears that remnants of the people she’s talking about still haunt her today.
She furthered by saying, “They really destroyed my inner joy, and how bubbly I was and so carefree. And I’m still struggling because I wish I wouldn’t have to see them. Parang dinumihan nila ‘yung part ng area kung saan ako nagta-trabaho, na nandyan sila.”
Heart on getting over her painful experience
Still on the topic of getting over broken relationships with former friends, a baffled and frustrated Heart couldn’t help but talk about a certain instance when she really questioned her morals because of other people’s actions towards her.
“You know what he did the other day? He took out all of our collaborations together. Like what did I do to you? You were the one that ano… parang ganon ba ako kasama? Pati ako, mapapa-question ako, masama yata akong tao. Pati ba naman ‘yon?” a feelsy Heart blurted out.
Nonetheless, Heart tries her very best to move forward in her life, even to the point of *overcompensating.* It’s hard she says, but she’ll definitely have the strength to overcome it.
“I’m trying to entertain na nga rin kasi it’s my way of getting over it. Overcompensating ako kasi alam ko may problems ako personally. […] But of course, I’ll get over it,” Heart noted.
