The U70 mother-in-law was in a dilemma when her daughter-in-law announced her pre.gn.a.ncy.

"Mom, you don't know how to enjoy your blessings. You have so many children and grandchildren, what else are you not satisfied with?" The voice of my daughter-in-law Tieu Linh rang in my ears, carrying a teasing tone.

My daughter-in-law just announced the good news, my s.on is about to give birth to his third grandch.ild. At first, everyone thought I should be very happy, because the family is about to have a new member, having many children and grandchildren is a great happiness that everyone desires. But deep inside, I have indescribable feelings, there are really things that are hard to put into words.

I am 69 years old this year, I used to really want to have many chi.ldren and grandchildren. I wanted to see the chil.dren grow up, play in the house, wanted to take care of them, and build the family. But when the grandchild.ren were born one after another, I realized the hardship of taking care of young chi.ldren. My two eldest grandchildren, one is five years old, the other is three years old, they are naughty and active, I have had to run after them all over the house many times, comfort them when they cry, feed them rice. At night, they cry again, many nights I have to stay up all night to put them to sleep. I have devoted all my heart and energy to taking care of them, from eating, sleeping to teaching and playing with them.

Seeing them grow up every day, I feel happy and proud. But at the same time, I also feel like I have "burned" myself out for them. I no longer have time for myself, no longer have the energy to do the things I like. I miss the afternoons when I could sit and sip tea with friends, the days when I could go to the temple to worship Buddha, the trips with the elderly. Now, my life revolves around diapers, milk, and the cries and laughter of my grandchildren. I just hope that when my grandchildren are strong enough to go to kindergarten, I will be able to rest and return to my hometown to enjoy my old age. I want to return to my hometown, plant a small vegetable garden, raise a few chickens, exercise in the garden in the morning, go for a walk with friends in the afternoon, watch TV and read books in the evening. That peaceful life has always been my dream.

But then my daughter-in-law got pregnant, and I knew I would have to continue the "battle" of taking care of young children. I love my chil.dren and grandchildren, and I cannot refuse to help. But I also feel tired, I am afraid that I do not have enough strength to take care of another chi.ld. I am worried about my health, I am afraid that I cannot accompany my grandchildren on their path to adulthood. I am 69 years old, my health is not as good as before, my bones and joints are starting to ache, my eyesight is blurry, and my hearing is getting worse. I am afraid that I will become a burden to my children.

I know my thoughts may be considered selfish, but I hope everyone understands the feelings of a grandmother who has devoted her whole life to her ch.ildren and grandchildren. I also want to rest, I want to live for myself. But I am also a mother, a grandmother, I cannot abandon my children and grandchi.ldren. I know I will continue to take care of them, but I also hope to receive sympathy and sharing from those around me. I hope that when my grandchildren grow up, they will understand the silent sacrifices of their grandmothers and mothers. I hope that my family will always be happy and warm. And I also hope that I will have enough health to accompany my grandchildren throughout their life, but I really don't know what to do anymore. I want to go back to my hometown, I want to rest, but I don't know how to tell my children. Will they understand me? Will they think I am a selfish mother and grandmother? How can I tell my children that I want to go back to my hometown and no longer want to help them without making them sad?

The confession of a U70 mother after being posted on Sohu page received a lot of attention from the Chinese online community.

If you are a mother-in-law and fall into a similar situation, what will you do? Honestly express your wishes to your children so that they can arrange and go back to their hometown to rest. Quietly help your children for a few more years to ease the guilt in your heart.